Improvise!😱☺️🙄🤔

For me improvisation has always been the most fascinating thing in the world of acting. I love how actors can put themselves out on a stage and start interacting with other actors from a spot without any preparation. It's amazing how some people don't need a piece of paper to give a speech in front of the auditory. It looks so much more naturally than a person starring at his/her note for the whole speech. But at the same time I have been avoiding it for a very big part of my life. If you ask me I'll tell you why: because any kind of improv makes me uncomfortable. I don't like talking about it because it's my weakness and nobody wants to talk about his/her weaknesses. When I'm put into conditions where I have to act without knowing what my next line will be I start panicking. It, of course, depends on who surround me at that moment. I'm a person with a low self-esteem and always have a feeling that everything I say is stupid and nobody would be interested in what I have to say. I'm not proud of that. Not at all. I'd love for this feeling to go away but it's not as simple as it seems. I've been working on this for a long time and I still do every single day. There are good days when I step up and improve a lot. But there are bad days when I feel like I'm failing no matter what I do, and it's not even worth it. The point, in my opinion, is to keep going, keep struggling, keep overcoming yourself until you get what you want. 

This week I had an opportunity to try myself in improvisation. It was hard, as usual. The hardest part is always to start when your body is practically forces you to run away with all possible ways. The best thing to do is just relax and breath. That's what I did. Just breath. I was glad with people around me at that moment. I was already used to acting in front of them. And they weren't people who would judge me. I wouldn't do it if I were in other environment. At some point it stops being so excruciatingly scary and became just a game which proved that all of that was  just in my head. 

If you look at improv without being terrified  to death, it's a very interesting process. It's also very useful not only in acting sphere but in life in general. The ability to improvise develops mind and fasten reactions. Such skills help to reach  any goal, overcome any difficulty, quickly find the right solution in extreme situation. Communication with people is another advantage of improvisation. Knowing how to improvise makes you understand the  behavior of certain people and how to reflect on anything they can say. To conclude, improvisation skills are valuable no matter what angle you're looking at. I hope to learn how to improv and use all the perks of it.